I don't know if you're dead or alive.
I don't know if you're religious or what faith you would happen to follow.
Regardless, I've seen your journals and send you the best of wishes.
I'm sorry you've had to face such hard times. I wish I could have met you.
Perhaps we could have even been friends...
I've seen people assume other users as dead before and this is why I'm not sure what to think or how to feel. I've seen people take very long hiatus that can stretch into years, come back when recovered and then be completely confused as to why people started assumptions and rumors about them being deceased. If you're still alive, please feel free to send a note my way sometime. I'd love to get to know you. If you have indeed passed on, rest in peace. And happy holidays/belated birthday!